Can I admit something to you? I find it incredibly hard to label myself when it comes to my hobby. Terms like illustrator, artist, character designers, I’m just not comfortable identifying as those just yet.
There’s something about labels that makes things feel so… official. And since I’m currently doing this art thing predominantly for fun, where there’s no income involved or group I’m apart of or published work to present, I almost feel like I’d be a fraud if I tried applying such labels to myself.
Is that normal? Or am I being just being crazy?
Originally I was going to say I’m an illustrator. Because in a way I think you could consider what I do here on the blog to be illustrative work. I create images to go with and help communicate some aspects of my post. (Well, not this post specifically, this is mostly one of those: look, here’s a bunch of random girls I drew out of magazines posts.) But does that really count? Most illustrators design for books and magazines. Official stuff. Group efforts. Published work. I don’t feel right putting myself with them.
And then there’s the term doodler. That’s what I usually go for because I feel it doesn’t hold as much weight; it doesn’t seem as serious. But that’s a lie, in a way, isn’t it? Doodles are scribbles or drawings done absent-mindedly. And believe me, my mind is fully involved when I create.
I even tried artist… but I can’t say that feels right either. Am I an artist? I create, yes. But in my mind I feel like artists are these deep thinkers who really work their thoughts into their artwork. In contrast, my work is so… surface-level. I draw things I think are pretty or that show snippets of my life. There’s really no secret messages involved. What you see is what you get.
I just don’t know. I’ve settled for creator because really, that’s what I do, create.
I do believe this is part of the growing process as a creator, though. At a certain point, it’s hard not to look at what you do and think: “is this just a hobby or is this something that is part of who I am?” And art isn’t just a hobby for me anymore. It’s a love, it’s a peace, it’s a joy. It’s something that I want to stay in my life, a staple in my day. Even if I don’t produce deep philosophical pieces or traditionally published work, I’m creating art that is growing with me and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
So yeah, I’m a(n)
illustrator doodler artist creator growing with her art because she loves it. I think that sounds about right.
And who knows, maybe someday I won’t struggle to identify as my hobby so much. Someday.
In the meantime, here are some of my thoughtless illustrations where I capture pretty girls from magazines. Enjoy.
What do you think? Have you ever come to that point where you’ve wondered if you should apply a label to yourself for a hobby you love and, if so, did it ever feel… uncomfortable? Whether it be author, illustrator, blogger, crafter, designer. Let me know in the comments below!